October 6, 2013

I Love You

I thank you,
For time that's being given
For the people I have met
For all experiences I have tasted
For luxury I have granted
For the love I have felt
For life that should not be wasted
I love you God, I hope you'd love me too

March 8, 2013

Happy Birthday Dad

27 February 2013

I am walking on my way home now
This housing cluster is so quite, I wish to be this calm until the end of the road

I am walking alone with my head down
Trying to catch one good memory to distract the burden away
I found one, it was with my dad

It was when I am about 8 years old, formerly also was a thinker kind
If I recall that that time again I begin to realized that was when this pattern begins
This restless mind must be tricked sometimes

I used to distracted myself with television, a lot
Thinking rather drag my focus on commercial breaks than struggle with such conflicted heart
Back then we only have one big screen television on the living room
A big pacifier when mom and dad were asleep, or so I thought

That was where I belong
When disturbing thoughts keep creeping me out
Cling on to the remote where I put up hopes
"seed me some happy thoughts"

Till I fall asleep

This isn't a tale of broken home
Because there was a father, my father
Carry me up to bed in the middle of my sleep
Carefully mind his steps, afraid to wake his daughter up
Gently tuck me into my bed
Made me feel like a princess that has been saved from a haunted castle

That was the moment when I finally could feel safe
That was the moment when I ensured I wasn't alone
That was the time I knew, I have a wonderful dad

The Next Chapter

Time flies so fast and rarely slowing down for me. It's almost been a year, but that is just a dosage
of dimension that we create in our head isn't it? Time more like a space to build our significance in this world,
to implement our imagination, to celebrate our existence, and that's the way I see time as a subjective thing
- everyone has their own measurement of how long time feels than how long it really was. 

Now that it's almost a dead end on this side of the road, it's time to evaluate and rejoice 
to so many possibilities at the beginning of a new chapter. It may be good, it may be bad 
- that's okay, because I know it'll be different.

See you soon..

February 22, 2013

February 13, 2013

JAKARTA IS A BITCH - for street walkers

This is the most challenging day for me being a street walker in Jakarta so far.
Crossing the street on a rush hour is one thing, but getting stuck in the middle of the long wide road
and almost being hit by 3 cars and 2 motorcycle (to be precise) is a lot to handle.
It's upsetting and sad to ever think that lack of concern from others can cause a road accident 
which possibly lead my way to die. Okay that's a paranoid talk, but if you ever feel that close to lose your life
on such irresponsible hand - then you'll understand what I was upset for.

February 11, 2013

The Edge of Love

It's you, who makes me feel I would never be alone
It spoiled me how you always believe there is something about me that people will love tenderly,
like you did most of the time

I don't quite remember how He puts us side to side to the point much further than love
Until we learn to have faith and surrender ourselves to all surprises He kept for us,
so we could genuinely appreciate the presence of each other in our lives
Thanks for making me believe that happiness is as real as the present,
realizing that human could feel content, even without having everything she wants

photo by Meutia Ananda