JAKARTA IS A BITCH - for street walkers

This is the most challenging day for me being a street walker in Jakarta so far.

Crossing the street on a rush hour is one thing, but getting stuck in the middle of the long wide road

and almost being hit by 3 cars and 2 motorcycle (to be precise) is a lot to handle.

It's upsetting and sad to ever think that lack of concern from others can cause a road accident 

which possibly lead my way to die. Okay that's a paranoid talk, but if you ever feel that close to lose your life

on such irresponsible hand - then you'll understand what I was upset for.

The Edge of Love

It's you, who makes me feel I would never be alone

It spoiled me how you always believe there is something about me that people will love tenderly,

like you did most of the time

I don't quite remember how He puts us side to side to the point much further than love

Until we learn to have faith and surrender ourselves to all surprises He kept for us,

so we could genuinely appreciate the presence of each other in our lives

Thanks for making me believe that happiness is as real as the present,

realizing that human could feel content, even without having everything she wants

photo by Meutia Ananda

I'D RATHER..

I'd rather stay at home, make some quality time

and have a real conversation with real people.

I thought I was so lucky to have a green neighborhood. It makes us feel close to the nature and it's easier to feel balance somehow. But just months from now those heaven land will soon become a mall.

Just like "The Big Yellow Taxi" song.

Millions of people in Jakarta have dealing with bad traffic everyday and I bet, half of those people have been surrender to that condition.

Well I'm not..

Sometimes I took public transportation, the condition is even concerning. I looked around, seems like nobody give serious thoughts about how poor our condition is. I guess we've been accustomed to be raised to just give in.

But I can't help myself but wonder, are they aware of how our life are in stake every time we use this poor public transportation. With no intention to be over paranoid, but its true that most of the city buses in Jakarta is a rotten vehicle-since every time I took a bus it always feels like hearing a broken record, creaking as if it screaming for retirement.

I still want to bitching about it because I know that it's not how we're supposed to live. I am not accepting the way people think that; this is what we deserve for living in Jakarta.

When we are going to fix this..
I'm no longer willing to take 4 hours on one way to my office, not anymore.
I wish we'll have better public transportation and MRT soon.

on Singapore bus

Smartest person will knows, even the most stupid person can teach you something.

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Sebuah Pikiran

Ketiadaan sering membuatku ketakutan. Entah itu kematian, lampu yang padam, juga kehilangan yang mendalam. Rasanya seperti menyalakan flush ketika buang air, tapi yang berbeda di sini sayalah yang berada di dalam pusaran itu. Berakhir menyongsong kegelapan menuju tempat yang tidak pasti.


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Love Twist

I’ve been watching over my cell phone for 5 hour now. Waiting if there’s any a message or phone call I would accept from “only I know who”. Waiting, waiting, waiting.. And finally get sick of it. Fuck it says the American, or bummer word if the British put it.

But there no use of that, I’m aware I’m still lonely.

Ray Ban oh Ray Ban!

How I miss to wear you again in a sunny day.

Feels like just yesterday,

when I wore you at the bay,

in a sweet holiday.

Even the sun is burning but it's woth to spend the day.

Now you've been abandoned day by day.

Just lying there beside the clay.

I'm sorry for what I have to say

*Kayanya gw mulai lebay